Domestic Flights

there are so many doors in florida
for three days
i was turning toward each one
holding my breath
for an entrance
from the back side of the bar
like i wanted to ruin your day
and the cool confrontation 
of showing up
i wanted you to know i was there
i wanted you to see me 
more than i needed to know it
but im glad this is fiction 
and im unpacking 
eight years of baggage
in airports
on domestic flights