Unhinged

I want it in the way that only I can remember. Unhinged a little on the edges, blurry moments snake-like swallowed, everything at once because it’s the only way I know how to move. All at once because there there’s nothing else to breathe and even though I’ll remember today-tomorrow it was all one fluid movement through. I want it in the way that only I can unlock, while driving, staring into the spaces between raindrops imploding on the windshield with the same lyrics I’ve sang a thousand times but always seem to change. I disappear for a few minutes at a time, taking it in. I want to feel everything in the way that I wanted your affection.