the bridge is bridled this time. stories greet the only sun in fall and rise. sole compartments, cars are told those dirty secrets and all those souls are sold. reckless droves. one false move. one crash. a bang. surreal and rearviewed, suddenly stained the bridge, another story, another life remained.
i can taste these pages stained in wine. my ink intertwined and spilled in guts sublime. strangers now, we only drive by. she only lives on lines, in between the truth and lies. time serves the life of lovers strife. dissent. smile. reprise.
nervous to call. nervous to write. nervous to hear the voice, of a known stranger in the night. but it was different this time, and despite the wire i could feel the warmth of that shine and smile. stoic both, in past precautions so the world had woven in our hearts, tombs of unforgetting, looking west for all we've lost. in reverie, in broken parts. you're doing well.
i think of you, and i smile on the plane. in prior lives truly unseen combat the lesser known, my love and quarrels bought mistakes we know. but i think of you, often, and abroad, and all of them broken hearted for the time we've forced apart.
though in truth certainty is only a myth, we can count in trinity lifes granted guarantees. death and taxes and duality. when all is right in all the worlds, when peace is love and war is worn on faces in grace of gods by all, by day and dark in binary of dusk and dawn, and common as the carbon your truest myth is gone, certainty is wrong. your own reality reigns righteous by the light and perception leads you on. an action and a motive, and duality is born so set your sights on fire and breathe in chance for freedom. if certainty is myth, then whats the risk but black and white by binary in life?
are there only lies when you close your eyes? are you sinking? are you sleeping? are the shadows real? in the dark and and fading wake when all thats seen is scared and stark. you're screaming fast, no scream could last and all the shade is glazed in fast contrast from black to black. the secret night you never speak. the presence bleak, and from oblique in evil pressed the damned unto your chest. sinking screaming, so good to rest alas! you wish, but not so blessed, no sound, unholy breath and black surround in life and death as livid limbs confound to live and break for light and breath. another night, another life. to sleep, its make or break or death.
i feel for constant pulse, to see if im still here. i've seen behind my rosey-eyes, and through your smokey mirror. and though we know what passed is past, with history comes fear. the story goes, from we to woe all starry eyed and sheared.ships may pass in darkest night, but never disappear.
this instance blacked in ignorant bliss when on the darkened water nothing innocent came with that kiss in moments in the standstill spoken words were on the tips and wrapped within our lips, skipped the world with fingers curled, pressed into your skin. i dont know just what you are, but crave your taste again.
so swept away we see in only black and white, and hope for guarantee, but fear to fail and fail to see what's always in between, the only certain truth for me is life in its uncertainty and so the plan is always gray and colors meant to change, in binary behind blue eyes that only see in green and greet each sun in smirk and smile under sheets or in denial. tried and tuned, the tired few all felt the burn in dual, the only certain jewel in life, is life's uncertain truth.
we only play with fire. intrigued anonymous, infatuation at its finest behind those vegas eyes and sinners mile. blinded by the cheshire smile in the city lights and every souls desire. arm in arm along the way but only in denial, black and blue the words from who, but only for a while. i am i and you are you, but who are we to know the truth if only mortal in the sun, but true forever still to some. anonymous in love.
in the end we remember in flashes of sudden memorial as inherent feelings of loss come 'cross the bow. a kiss for the living, minor madness by your side in brief moments in time for which the brevity of such account can not compare to the breadth and the breathless loss of mind. all those moments add up to all those people and all those places, the words we've said to those we've loved and the ones that never met the ears of the ones we might have. the sum of all the do's and don'ts, the wishes, whispers, and secrets never told is all the endings and beginnings that a lifetime holds.
and you know them all so well...all those dreams you used to have of faces faded in horizons, open roads and sun stained rogues. burnt forearms leaning out the windows all alone. stop, then go. the wild faces with wider smiles linger along the miles. raspy voices strung, slung with scratchy laughter from all the smoky lounges and jukebox romance that line the interstate islands. talks on loves from yesterdays past after yesterday has passed and the drowning sun admits to all the myth your mind could offer. until at last, amidst the chalky wisdom you become a ghost and disappear to only dusty memories to all those open arms. vagrants of the road. and on. and on.
i wonder. to find god in an empty room when it’s been so long since i've set foot in a holy house, i doubt one would remember my name. i think there’s something i've searched for, been searching for a long time but i'd be remiss to tell you i had any sort of finite grasp on what exactly "it" is. i'd settle just to say there is something missing. there must be more to this. in all my thought i've come across more questions, and questions rise to questions. faith is a dangerous word i've questioned mine for all time and lost it in the process. now i can sit here over the low lit crackling burn of this cigarette and promise you that this inherent faith of mine lies somewhere in the great unknown, i only hope that when the smoke clears and the ashes strung out in front sting the ground that i'll find some sign in all of it, my cavalier christ. maybe i'm asking too much, but hell...you never know what might come out in conversations with strangers in the dark. you could learn more about yourself in five awkward minutes than a lifetime of comforts and picturesque made beds. i like to dream that there are still some originals out there. it’s hard to see, hard to hope it’s not a hoax. harder still to tell what’s real and what feels coming around any corner with the snowfall of false truths and idols on the firing line. the best thing to do is take it all in stride, say always what’s on your mind. move on, and keep moving on in these streets of old gold storefronts and twenty-something teenage icons that line the curbs. right here for the taking, right next to all our faded jeans and washed out American dreams.